old battles

    

     It's hard to write these days because I am so busy with my thoughts and my works,quite lots of things to do apart of those I've put them off until another chance.Looking for a new job,concentrating on my course in English and trying to be up to dated with all the news and so on ...!

      Occasionally I dream in English and I think this is the time either I need to confirm English as my third language and keep learning  , or to  leave it right here on this stage, flattering myself that I have done my best and actually I don't need to spend more time on.

      To be honest,I am still struggling my old battles,asking my old mouldy questions that why I am here...? where am I..? what can I do...? what would I do...? And looking for the way to achieve what I promised myself years ago.

      Despite of all the questions which are left out, now I've stopped calling myself a sacrifice.I have been absolutely convinced that I was only a tiny part of a smallest group of my generation.I just born in a critical period of time accidentally and no one knows I could have a better life if I was in a different history or place.

      As long as I am here on the earth, walking, breathing and dreaming like millions of others,that's the main thing.